Wow....

I really don't know what to say....I've never looked at someone that i have been so close to and see a total stranger. Someone that i have shared personal things with...and i'm totally uncomfortable being around them....It's like hey where did my friend go and who the fuck are you. Impersonating this person who was once someone that i saw everyday and talked to everyday and couldn't even imagine it any other way....you are not her, tell us where you've been hiding her! you say she's gone and never coming back. that hurts. it's like this person i once knew has died. and i will never see her again. the only thing i can think of is that maybe when things were said...maybe we were the only ones meaning it, and you were just going with the flow. maybe it was just something to do. i guess i just don't understand how you can care and love people so much and turn around and they are nothing to you. you couldn't give two shits if you never saw them again....thats rough...thats a really rough thing to accept. well so ur moving away...atleast u don't have to worry about seeing us ever again...u won't happen to run into us at the bar or happen to come home and we are at ur house. it's really crazy knowing that you will never see someone again. someone that was supposed to be in ur life forever one way or another. a year from now, will u remember wha we looked like? will you remember any of quirky things? or will those be forgotten like the feelings and memories we've shared. i wish i could find out how you feel, but then again, i don't. cuz then i might find out that i'm right about everything . it's one thing to think someone feels a certain away and be well ok i guess with it, atleast just accepting of it. cuz then in the back of your head u think, there is still a chance that this person cares , this person still has some emotion. But we did have some awesome times. too bad it was such a short period of time. but thats life. u were a stranger about this time last year, funny how you are again now.......